Every morning at exactly 7:00 a.m., I willingly make myself look unhinged. The park follows a predictable rhythm at that hour. Joggers move in disciplined circles. Dog owners drift at half speed, phones in hand. Retirees claim the same benches they claimed yesterday. And then there is me. Moving against the flow, eyes forward, feet going backward. I feel it immediately. The pause in conversations. The brief double-take. The not-so-subtle glances that say, Is this guy okay? For the first week, I wanted to explain myself to strangers. I fantasized about wearing a shirt that said, "This is intentional." But three months in, I don’t bother anymore. Because something unexpected happened. My knees stopped hurting. And something stranger followed. My mind started waking up faster than coffee ever managed. I am not walking backward to be edgy or different. I am doing it because, quietly and almost accidentally, it fixed problems I had accepted as permanent. And it only costs me five ...